posting from my phone this time. but i just had to take a moment to share a moment with everyone reading this. it's perfect weather in arizona, and a perfect night for the outdoors… and homemade music.
I’ve really enjoyed the past two weeks here at my parent’s house – spending time with my brother, sister and parents. I even like the snow. I don’t know what’s gotten into me, but I feel happy right now. I normally get depressed in the winter months with all the snow and lack of sunshine outside. Perhaps I’ve gained some kind of acceptance to all of this. I love the mountains too. I’m not leaving yet either… well, hopefully I’ll make it out to CA to visit some relatives before my life in AZ resumes. I don’t want to leave here though!
On a different topic: I realize that I’m not taking my life serious enough when it comes to finding work. I guess I struggle with the fear that a job will suck or I won’t be able to do it. It’s like I’m scared to apply to some jobs I’ve looked at.Yet I know I don’t have to do a job if it sucks, so logically I don’t know why I fear it at all, I just do. I have tons of skills and experience, so it doesn’t make sense that I feel inadequate in jobs that are “professional” or require credentials.
I want to start doing genealogy. I really feel like I can use my technical know-how to benefit the work in our lines. There is a cousin of mine who does a lot of genealogy, plus my mom sometimes does it too.
I fell asleep on the couch at 8pm after watching “Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon” and it was so comfortable, I woke up at 10 and went to my bed and now I can’t sleep. What’s up with that? Should have stayed on the couch. Hey, that’s why I’m blogging anyways… can’t sleep 🙂