So I got a good grade on my last test! It was the third Chemistry test (1 more + a final to go), and I was really, really stressed out about it because it covered 5 chapters and they are hard. I don’t think I’ve ever cared about school so much before, but I guess I feel like I’ve invested so much time and money here that I want it all to be worthwhile. So all those slump times have lifted. Funny thing about life though is the cycles: the good, the bad, and the good again. I kinda like it.
On another note, here is a Weird Al music video, “Trapped in the Drive-Thru” that I really like. It’s simple and kinda stupid, so I can’t really explain why I like it. It just sticks in my head:
I just feel like I’m losing the battle here. Not keeping up on my studies. Can’t sleep at night. Can’t wake up in the morning. Big test tomorrow and I wish I could understand the concepts better (I try to study all the time but just can’t break the English-Russian barrier I have with my teacher. His study guides are crap and I’m sick of the bad grammar and broken English with made up words. I can’t believe I PAID TUITION for this crap!)
I’m also feeling emotionally numb. It usually happens this time of year when there’s more darkness, and the air gets a little colder. I just don’t know how I feel internally. Good, Bad, Exited, Sad. I dunno. I just wake up and move.
Other thoughts constantly running through my head are that I need to find a better job. One that I enjoy. In fact, I’m feeling this more as a prompting. I’m thinking of something within the electronic design business, or the good old outdoors. It makes sense for me to pursue my dreams of being an engineer, but not like this (paying out of state tuition at a University with a crappy professor – no matter what kind of reputation ASU has, I’m better off taking chemistry at a community college, or studying it on my own). I’m almost sure EE catches my interest more than Rocket science, because knowing how electronics work means you know how just about everything we use today works, and knowing rocketry means you know how to send something into space – cool, but not everyday practical. On top of all this, going into extra debt makes me feel sick. Even if it’s for as good a cause as going back to school. I’ve lived here over a year, voted here, and paid taxes here. If ASU doesn’t consider me a resident next semester, I’m dropping out, and making plans for a different school.
Ugh. The worst part about the past few days has been my bad sleeping schedule.
But the best part, is last weekend I drove to the Dragoon Mountains in the Coronado Natl Park to meet Jo and Porter. We camped, climbed, and made dutch oven food. Good times! Click Here for the pictures.
I just finished watching old Punky Brewster episodes on YouTube. I can’t believe I was into that show as a kid (among others like Thunder Cats, Different Strokes, and even Mr. Rogers), but it’s still pretty fun to watch and reminisce.
I watched the one where Zack Morris was her math tutor. In a way I wonder if watching shows like this one had any affect on how I view the world today. Take for example, if I saw anybody wearing different colored shoes and crazy hair I would consider them to be cool in my book, whereas others may think that’s pretty dumb. Or even the whole boy-likes-girl (and vica-versa) interaction displayed between Punky and Walker (Zach) – I’m sure it gave me pre-conceived opinions about what romance was all about (being a kid when I was watching this on TV, and not having any girlfriend), plus I think this show is why I thought multi-colored clothes were really hip. I wish I could go back and watch myself watching these TV show and see how I was receiving it all.
However, my favorite episodes were the originals, when Punky was really young . It’s just as simple to say that Punky inspired me when I was a kid. Did parents in the 80’s ever think that TV would do that?
But what’s also funny to think about is the dynamics of the show… there’s an old man, a dog, and a spunky girl living in a small apartment – who made this up?
For those of you who didn’t get to see his speech, it is one of the best speeches I’ve heard and I loved what he had to say. I’ve provided a link here: